I’ve been putting off writing this post, but it’s time.
As you might recall, I’ve been having a lot of stomach problems recently. It got to the point that my stomach was so bloated that I looked pregnant, it just didn’t look normal for someone my size.
Based on my symptoms, my physician figured it was my gallbladder, and after a few tests, it was determined that I had a nonfunctioning gallbladder, and I went in for gallbladder surgery on February 19th.
Here’s where everything goes sideways.
As it turns out, the doctor performing the surgery discovered tumors in my abdomen. He took the opportunity to run a biopsy while I was in the surgery, and determined that the tumors were cancerous.
I went to sleep thinking I was having my gallbladder removed, and woke up with cancer. It was quite a day.
From there it was tests and waiting to find out the exact diagnosis. Friday morning (the 22nd) was the meeting with the oncologist, where I received the diagnosis of GIST: gastrointestinal stromal tumors. Mine are inoperable, but there’s hope, in the form of a very specific medicine developed in just the past 15 years or so. My oncologist is cautiously optimistic – he’s former military, so I don’t think it would be possible for him to blow rainbows, so when he says the chances are good, I believe him.
And that’s what’s been happening with me for the past two weeks. I have good days and bad days, but overall I feel better than I did two weeks ago. I’ve gone from not being able to eat much at all (mmmm, Ensure!) to keeping down three small meals a day. I’m fatigued, and the medicine makes me very nauseous, but I’ll take some discomfort if it means the medicine is working. I’m actually going back to work tomorrow, which I’m looking forward to – routine! Getting out of my own head for a while!
So that’s where I am now. I have cancer. It’s being treated. This is all very new and very scary, but my family has been amazing. My parents flew up from Florida and spent a week here, which was hugely comforting. Ben (Mr. Martini) has been a rock star, dealing with insurance companies and making appointments and contacting people when I just didn’t have it in me.
I’m not sure how to end this post. This is something I’ve never done before. I just wanted to put it out there, just to let you all know what’s happening. I suspect I’ll have a lot more to say in the upcoming weeks/months. Stay tuned. xoxo
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